What the hell?

wah

so that's what i did yesterday as soon as i left the confines of the office. i called my mom to let her in on the semi-definitive news that i was not going to be picked up by the big corporation. all the evenings i stayed late (for a pidly sum), the weekends worked, and the countless holiday periods i lugged a secure ID around - for zilch. i really thought if i put my effort into this crappy temp gig a permanent spot would materialize.

So today I get to train the Atlanta lead business analyst on GRID...you know, so she is adequately prepared to meet with the BU the remainder of the next two days.

bite me.

As a priority I'll be returning the recruiter's phone call as soon as business hours start. I woke up around two and can't fall asleep again. So I'm up pondering how to make the most of my last two weeks. With the illusion of a job over my head, i can claim employment during any interview that potentially materializes during this period. the woman (can't recall her name now - not that i would post it) was illusive in her message, but i suspect wanted to prep me before sending me over. or, she could just be in the process of whittling down candidates. hmm.

i'm trying to type quietly as the e is (hopefully) in slumber mode. i came over to return bedding, but ended up staying to watch the direct tv dance. by the time they left, when the offer to drink a glass of wine arose I jumped on it. it was therapeutic to vent (a little I hope) and then hear about what sounds like the trip of a lifetime. i can't wait to see pictures. (and yes, i know i haven't posted mexico - but i have downloaded). anyway, after scarfing pizza down the carb wave hit, and we were both tired. the thought of hailing a cab seemed like mundo effort and i stayed here. the feeling of absolute failure was weighing a wee bit heavily on my mind, and the company was welcome. i have to tell you, i feel like such a fool. and as i was telling folks last night, i passed on one too many events this summer, christmas, etc....for what? UGH. whatever.

alright, alright. so this is one place for me to vent. it's hard to smile at work, but, boy, am I chipper. which reminds me...i'm goign to let them absorb the cost of mailing a box to my house vs. schlepping it home myself. and i will remember to take soft copies to demonstrate the work i've been up to. but, now that i remember, i have to convert to PDFs in order to keep. The proprietary software used won't transfer to my home pc/mac. I'm glad i remembered that.

posted by irene @ 2/10/2004 03:55:00 AM